By the Waters of Babylon

"When the sun rose, I thought, "My journey has been clean. Now I will go home from my journey." But, even as I thought so, I knew I could not. If I went to the Place of the Gods, I would surely die, but, if I did not go, I could never be at peace with my spirit again."

This quote shows somewhat of a paradox, as it says, he would surely die if he went to the Place of the Gods, but if he did not god, he would never be at peace with his spirit. Therefore, if he actually went to the place of the gods, he would never be at peace anyway, since he's going to be dead. Wouldn't this whole journey be pointless, if he would simply just die in the end?